some of you know that in mid August I went on a retreat through my church - Christ Renews His Parish (CRHP). I wasn't sure what to expect when I went but I am SO glad I did. Its not one of those fancy retreats that some churches put on, this is a really focused retreat with limited luxuries. At first I was quite nervous about not having certain things but I understand why it had to be that way.
Its put me back on track to who really is #1 in not just my life but the children's as well! I have joined formation for the next retreat with a GREAT group of ladies who I call my Sisters in Christ.
While all this is great, I still question certain things. I don't feel like I know how to pray. I mean, yes I pray but am I doing it to the fullest extent I can? Does that make sense? Some people can pray and its SO beautiful and when I hear myself I feel like I struggle with it.
Do I really have to change everything about me to believe in God? Do I change my music to only Christian music, the shows we watch on tv, everything?
I know my journey towards Him is going to be a long one. I am really just trying to figure out how to get there!
Any advise or anything could help!
I wish I had some answers for you, but I have the exact same questions! I found myself nonchalantly talking to God about Grace this morning and stopped and thought, "Should it be more formal than this?" I listen to Christian music because I like it, but I don't shy away from "regular" music either. I watch some pretty 'bad' shows and don't see myself changing that. Just wanted to let you know you aren't alone with your questions!
ReplyDeleteno, you definitely are not alone. I struggle with the same questions myself. I pray quietly and things pretty eloquent in my head, but when I pray out loud, it becomes jumbled... but I don't try to worry about it much. There was a message from church a few years back... praying is like communicating and conversing to God. It can be an text message "Thank you, God, for this rain!" or a quick email or a more in depth conversation. Praise and requests. God hears simple prayers without the "thou's" and "almighty" and other verbose ways to pray.
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