No one said that the journey to being closer to God was going to be easy. This week I've really been tested with it and I've been put into a funk. People don't understand sometimes how their words (or actions) can really knock a person down. I was told this week:
'You hide behind your kids to not enjoy life.'
This has REALLY been effecting me since someone said it this week. I don't feel like I am doing this, am I?
I have 5 kids and I'm a single mom with 1 income. I am not wealthy but I am not completely struggling either. I keep my head above water for the most part. As my kids have needs, I must provide for them first, as I am sure any parent would. My needs and wants in my eyes always come last. IF I have extra and am asked to do something or go somewhere I do if I can. It is very rare that it happens anymore. I know sometimes I feel (and its only when I'm struggling) that people see me, alone, with these kids and they don't want to hang out with me. I sometimes feel so out of place. I have friends who are either happily married, single moms to 1-2 kids or completely single and then there's me. Maybe people feel like its harder to relate to me and my situation, who knows. I am normal and fun to be around - there's just more attached to me to love.
I love my kids with all my heart and soul. They are for the most part a well behaved bunch. Maybe life isn't what I wanted to expected but we are making it. I only feel this way when I get knocked down.
Maybe I just need to pray about it more (as I learn to pray better then I do) and be more diligent in being a follower of God.
I should have just gone to Church this Sunday morning!
From your blog and facebook, you seem to enjoy life quite well. :)
ReplyDeleteI would like to think that those who make comments that bring me down have good intentions behind them. While it may not always be the case, I need to look at why their opinion bothers me. And then, I need to let it go.
People will always have their comments, judgements, and opinions.
We do the best we can and from what I see and know, you are a wonderful mother!!
And let me tell you, my Mother had all of the money in the world but, never put her kids first. She had a husband to help and never put her kids first.
You have a love inside that money and a husband can't buy. The love you have for your children.
Hopefully that opinion outweighs the one given to you earlier this week. ;)